I say it ALL. THE. TIME. I need to make time for myself, I am going to make time for myself. I will feel better. I will look better. Blah! Blah! Blah! Sometimes I think I just like to hear myself talk. Because what I say and what I do are 2 completely different things.
Believe me I understand why I need to do it. I understand how important it is. I understand that I need to put myself first every now and then. But if someone could please oh please explain to me how I get rid of the guilt I feel when doing something for me.
I grew up with a mother who NEVER did anything for herself EVER. She worked and worked and worked some more. I never saw much of her during the week and on the weekends she spent her days with me until she got another job then she worked 7 days a week. So I guess I always felt and was taught that only selfish people do things for themselves.
I am working on my issues but sometimes I feel like I will never change. I am trying each and everyday to be healthier and eat healthier. Here is a pot of soup I made, baby steps.
The eyes tell a lot about a person. You can see sadness, happiness, so many emotions come through the eyes. I often wonder what people are thinking when they look at me, what do they see? Do they see all I have been through? Do they care?
So in within this Project 365 lies a Happiness Project. I am starting that Happiness Project with Organizing my life and what better place to start then the pantry. Behold, the before and the after. I am so much happier with the after and it only cost me $21 at the Dollar Tree.
BEFORE
I am reading this and going to start my own Happiness Project. That means I am eliminating negativity from my life and people that I do not matter to. I am going to strive to do things that make me happy, because life is too short.
We went to the beach today, it’s January 12 and we were at the beach. We didn’t swim or anything but it was a beautiful 65 degrees. Such a beautiful and memorable day.
I love coffee. I am the only one who drinks it, my hubby hates it. I love the taste and I love the smell. It is definitely something I can not live without.
We got this cute little play kitchen from Ikea for our daughter for Christmas. Let me tell you, it was the best purchase ever. She loves it.
Happy Birthday to me. Another year older, and still not where I want to be in my life, maybe next year. I am learning a lot of lessons about people and people I thought I was important to. I will never again put so much effort into others that treat me like I do not matter. Maybe I can use all that energy on something worth while.
