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We got this cute little play kitchen from Ikea for our daughter for Christmas. Let me tell you, it was the best purchase ever. She loves it.
This was our baby girl’s first Christmas, I spent the day being so happy and thankful that she is here with us, that she is so happy and sweet, that she is able to share this wonderful day with us. Santa always goes a bit overboard with my son and now with baby as well. We had a wonderful day, it was a little too quiet. I don’t know every year Christmas comes and goes and I always say it doesn’t feel like Christmas, it just doesn’t feel like it. I thought that with everything my daughter had been through that this was the year, this is when I was going to feel “it”. Well Christmas came and went and I never felt “it”, I am not even sure what “it” is anymore.
My husband says since I have had Leah, I have become a different person in a good way, I have opened up more, made friends, learned to enjoy going out, started appreciating myself more, learned to let people in and to let people help me and to care about me, I guess I was always a pretty tough nut to crack, maybe I still am who knows. Anyway I will say this, for me to become very good friends with someone at 34 years old was a HUGE step for me. I have been so closed off to people in the past 6 or 7 years that I swore I would never let anyone in, not give anyone the chance to hurt me. So Leah has taught me to live, taught me to appreciate friendships, to enjoy people, to enjoy spending time with people. She has taught me to love, to love my family, to love my friends, to love myself. She has errupted a creativity in me, a yearning to learn, to do, to feel like I have never done before.
In the past 5 months I have grown as a person, I have become someone that I am starting to appreciate, I am starting to admire, I am starting to even like every now and then.
In the past I used to believe that people only hung out with me because they felt the had to or that they felt sorry for me, now I believe that I am just as good a person as they are and just as I value the time that I spend with them, they value the time they spend with me, I am worth spending time with. I have become a person that wants to improve myself, I have become a person who wants to have fun and try new things. My husband jokes and tells me he doesn’t know who I am anymore, but I believe that he enjoys all the things I have found in myself, this new found confidence that I am worthy of love, worthy of friendship, worthy of good things in my life.
Is this what the feeling of Christmas is? I am not really sure, but I am certain that it has to do with the love I feel for my husband and children, for the feeling of knowing myself and knowing I am worth all the love they have to give me in return. Leah has definitely opened my eyes this Christmas, I am a wonderful person who deserves to be treated well, to experience all life has to offer and to have fun while I am doing it. And in the magic of Christmas for years to come I plan on experiencing life and having fun with my husband, my kids, my family and my friends. So here’s to 2011, you were a difficult year to say the least, but with you came lessons of life, love and friendship that I will cherish always. I look forward to 2012 with a new hope and a new lease on life and all it will bring our way. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and held your loved ones a little tighter, and let your friends know how much they mean to you.
Merry Christmas Eve, I am so happy and so thankful to be sharing this wonderful holiday with my two beautiful children, my amazing husband and my parents. As I have said before and will probably say thousands of times, I have so much to be thankful for, this year has been one of the worst and one of the best years of my life all wrapped up into one. Having one of the most scariest births I can imagine, learning of my daughter’s diagnosis, going through her surgery and watching her get through it all has been the experience of a lifetime. She has amazed me and has continued to amaze me each and everyday. I look so forward to making wonderful memories with my family, ones that my children will look back on each and every year.
I am so thankful for the wonderful friendships I have made this year,without them I do not know where I would be. I am blessed to have such wonderful and caring people in my life. So on this Christmas Eve, hug your loved ones tight, tell them how much you love them and look to the bright future that is ahead.
So it is that time of year that I love so much. The lights, the decorations, the presents all wrapped, the cards, the music, I have so much in my life to be thankful for wonderful husband who loves me and takes care of me, two wonderful children, parents that would do anything for me, and family and friends who are always there for me and love me. Really what more could a girl ask for?
I think that this year it is safe to say that I am madly, deeply, hopelessly in love with Christmas. The surprise, excitement and glee in my son’s eyes make me so happy inside I could melt and those little bright baby eyes, staring at the Christmas lights and ornaments, and that little baby mouth smiling at me is enough to make me swoon. They are my gift this Christmas, and I wish that gift for everyone, I wish everyone could have one day, just one where they can feel the love I feel for my family and friends. I am so blessed that my baby girl is here with us today, and she is doing so well, and she will be celebrating her First Christmas. I am so happy to have all the worry, sadness and fright behind us, so glad that she will be sharing all the fun times with us, so glad she has a wonderful, fabulous, beautiful life ahead of her and I can’t wait to share it all with her and my son. This weekend we will partake in some of my most favorite activities, last minute Christmas Shopping, gingerbread house creating, crafting, just fun, and good times. Can’t wait.
My little girl amazes me each and every day. Today we had to go to the hospital for an x-ray to find out if the chylothorax has emerged its ugly head. There were about 25 people waiting there when we arrived and I thought “Oh no we are going to be here all day.” but we no sooner gave our name to the lady at the desk and our name was called. The people must have been upset because the tech who came to get us said “she’s a baby and can’t be exposed to germs.” Thank you God for kind people, and I am sorry we aggrivated a few people but I was so happy that we were in and out.
We waited all day and 5 minutes ago got the phone call that the x-ray looks great and she has no restrictions. The cardiologist likes to tallk to the baby on the phone it’s very funny, I held the phone to her ear and she let out a laugh and a big smile, she loves her doctor. He then said the words I have been longing to hear since the moment she was born, “It is the holidays and your baby is happy and healthy, enjoy her, enjoy your family and have a wonderful holiday.” I could have kissed him. I am so happy I might just burst, I honestly do not remember ever feeling this happy, or at least I have not felt happieness to this magnitude for a very long time. This is the best Christmas gift that anyone can ever give me, I have my 2 children, they are happy and healthy and no matter how much I will worry about hospital bills and whether she is okay or not, I will enjoy my family this holiday because I am so blessed to have them all in my life. I am truly, deeply blessed.
So our doorbell rang last night. My son and I opened the door and we could hear jingle bells ringing in the distance. My son gasped and said “Santa!” On the ground was a little elf and a storybook accompanying him. My son grabbed the book ran to his room and said “come on mom let’s read the book and see what Santa wants us to do with him.” We read the book and my son decided to name his elf Frisbee.
Frisbee caused a little bit of mischief last night and we are so excited to see what he is going to do next.
