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So I showed up at this exercise place for women this morning. I was taught how to eat, what to eat, how much to eat, how many calories. All the women were very kind and supportive of each other, it was so nice to see and to feel comfortable and like I could be friends with people I just met. Feeling great, feeling good, fast forward to the workout. I think the trainer was trying to kill me. No really. She made me run. RUN!!!!!! I don’t run, I can’t run, this is the dialog that plays in my head when I think of running. It was the dialog in my head this morning with a few choice curse words I won’t share here. I ran and lifted weights, and ran some more, and squats and lunges and then it happened, I puked. REALLY????? I am paying for this????? I felt like I was on The Biggest Loser.
I can say that I did the best I could after being thrown in the fire, I ran a little, I couldn’t run like the other ladies there. I couldn’t do as many jumping jacks as them, but I tried and they cheered me on. It was the first time in my life I felt like I had a breakthrough in my health, the first time I felt good about myself, like wow I just did that?????? I FREAKING RAN!!!!!! ME! I RAN! It wasn’t like a 5k or anything in fact it was probably less than 1/2 a mile but I did it.
Then the realization of how incredibly out of shape I am, set in. But I guess I have to start somewhere right? I chose to throw myself into the fire, but hey I am an all or nothing type of gal. This class is every Saturday for a month. Maybe I will get better and will sign up again who knows. I am on a mission to go out of my comfort zone and this certainly did it.
So weight loss Wednesday was rudely interrupted by Valentine’s Day, I couldn’t back down from the Godiva truffles, I just couldn’t do it. Although I did not gain any weight this week, I didn’t lose either sadly I stayed the same. Still haven’t found the umph to exercise, I have been running back and forth to doctors and specialists with my daughter and having to be home for her Early Intervention twice a week, and working with her to get her muscles stronger. I am just so tired all the time, by the time 9 pm rolls around I am ready for bed.
I know that if I did exercise a lot more I would have more energy and maybe I would not be so tired at night, I know people say I have to make time for myself, but how do I do that when there is so much that has to be done? Maybe next week I will have better weight loss news.
I love my son, he is the smartest most kind hearted little boy I know, and I am not just saying that because I am his mother. He has a Math Test today and I made him a study guide so that we could review it together. He hugged me and said “Thanks for making this for me mom, I am going to do good on my test thanks to you.”
Then while doing my exercise yesterday he said “what are you doing mom?” and I told him that I was trying to lose weight to feel and look better. He said “don’t do that mom you are beautiful just the way you are now.” Man I love that kid. So nice segway into Weightloss Wednesday, huh? It hasn’t been going so well, PMS + TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT= NOT SO GOOD RESULTS. So I am hoping to get back into the swing of things today, making better choices and pushing myself a little harder in the exercise department. Hope everyone else who is also on this journey is doing well, Happy Healthy Wednesday everyone.
Okay so at 34 years of age I have decided that it is time to get my butt in shape. I am all ready, I’ve got the pants, the tshirt, the sneakers, the music, the spinning bike and the gym membership. I got this, I can do this, I can do anything, I watched my infant daughter go through heart surgery I can do ANYTHING. Fast foward to my morning attempt at the spinning bike, let me preface this by saying that 1 year ago I was able to get through a 1 hour spinning class. Now, well that is a whole other miserable story, I am ridiculously out of shape, I was barely able to do 10 minutes. Uggggh I am so depressed. I mean I know that this is the first step right? I just have to do it. So now I have a whole gym schedule, exercise at home plan and a menu. So hopefully I can also use this blog not only to write about my wonderful family but to also hold myself accountable to my health plan, wish me luck.
